I was totally shocked when my friend informed me that "Ayumi Hamasaki and Tomoya Nagase have broken up after they get together for 7 years" (This was my 2nd shock after Utada Hikaru divorced with her husband.)
Here is the letter from Ayu to her fan (from her official fanclub website)
Although it is a bit of sudden, I broke up with my lover. Really, sorry for being so sudden! (especially it is after Music Station) But!! Even if I said so, afterall, we were together over 7 years, we will not suddenly become "Bye. Yes, Stranger." sort of relations. We still contact with each other like before and we will date for dinners.
In other words, we exceeded the frame of being lovers and become like brothers in a family. This kind of relations.
That means we are no longer lovers, but we are like brothers, who care with each other, and will keep on sharing with each others our emotional feelings. Please support us warmly ( ^ - ^ )v
This is the thing that I want to report to all of you!
Living is choosing the thing you want to~ Yeah (1 LOVE lyrics)
I always respect Ayu & Tomoya for the ability to keep their relationship. It is hard because they are both superstars.
From the message above you can see, Ayu try to act that she is fine. But I know her feeeling. It is a tough time when you have to smile and hide your tears. I can feel it from my experience.
Last month, there was a rumor that Ayu & Tomoya will get marry in Octorber. So, I never expect for this kind of news.
People said that "7 YEARS" is a deadline for a couple to get marry. But for me, "7 MONTHS" is the longest period for me & my girlfriend. (Ok, you can laugh, it's just my absurdity.)
A few day ago, my girlfriend (in fact, our status is IN-BETWEEN) said to me that she didn't want to get marry. So I have to explain her when I say about our marriage, I'm not serious at all. It's just a kidding.
I'm not a person who think that marriage is a symbol of happiness. Please don't forget, French film always tells us ...marriage is a disaster 5555
At this moment, I think our status is not important at all (boyfriend/girlfriend, nearly wife/husband, gig, or whatsoever). The real point is how we feel to each other.
I'm not afraid to break up, or live alone again
But to restart a relationship to others again, again and again is unbearable for me, especially, now.
ps. I have to write this blog in English because it is too cruel for me to write this subject in Thai. Sorry for my poor language.
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I want to give this song to Ayumi, "DEPARTURE" from globe (legendary J-POP artist)
It is the best track from globe, I usually cry when I listen to this one