Bloodymonday's Diary in Christmas Eve
First thing first, I wish you all have a lovely evening on this important day. May god protect and bless you all.
For me, Christianity is not an option. I was born with a family who believe in the Bible. My aunt has been a nun since my previous life. My grandmother is such a true believer in whom she can live in church all day without being bored (this is not a sarcastic, it’s true!). So, as you can imagine, I was definitely born to be a normal- single-ordinary-good Christian.
Wrong, it’s turned out that I’m not much of a good Christian. Not even the close one. I often miss the church on Sunday. I often forget to prey before everything like normal Christians suppose to do. And lastly (and the most self-hating), only the times that I think about Jesus are the times I was in troubles.
Is this make me a bad Christian? Yeah, kind of. Everyday, I’m trying to follow lessons that have written in the Bible (although I don’t exactly remember word-by-word in many stories in this big holy book). But the basic premise of the term “good human being” is still the motto that I always keep in my heart.
“Do good things and you will be compensated in the future” is such a silly yet important statement that I’m trying to do all my life. It’s sure damn hard to do because you will never know that when good things will happen to us. Maybe in the next minute, coming out from nowhere, good thing might hit on you. Or you might wait for whole damn life just to receive some good thing that might not even worth the time. So what the point of being a good guy?
My answer is simple, other human being. It’s like when you do one good thing to other people, completely stranger. They will no longer identify you as one important-less person in the billions in this world. Instead, they will recognize you as “that nice guy”. Although they might forget you in the next couple of days, but hey, at least good things was already happened to other people, I’m sure that next times it will be my turn to get it. As long as people are continuing to act like this.
Maybe I’m too optimistic about this. Maybe other people don’t want to share this motto with you. Maybe they take advantage from you by using this. You know what? Screw them. I’m happy about being a good person. And that’s enough for me.
So I want to wish you happy again in the Christmas day (which is two more minutes away, while I’m writhing this). I’m hoping that all my friends out there will do good things sometime. And I really hope that you guys will successful in whatever you’ve preyed for.