Could you guys just......leave me alone (for a while)
Do I made myself clear? Please, everybody, just back off. Do not leave any kind of expectation on me. Do not wish or hope that I will capable to do anything as you desire.
I'm not the stupidest guy in the world, but I'm certainly not the brightest one. Maybe it was a wrong move to come back here. I don't know, man. It's just...pressure, work, family, etc are all too complicated for me (right now). I think I love my life back there in one year ago. Maybe I don't want to responsible for anything. I know that I hardly made a living back there, but at least I can fully control my damn self.
I don't know what made me write this blog, but it will remind me how ignorance I was. I need to learn controlling myself. Because right now, I sounded like arrogant, selfish bastard. And I hate to see myself like that...