YOU are not afraid. You think YOU are afraid. ~Shantimayi~
I tried. But it seems like it's never be good enough. Language! It's all about language. Can I say that?
This is tiring. I don't know what I am trying for. I remember that enthusiastic class. I remember that. But I slowly forget the feeling when I picked that card.
It's not been a year yet. But I feel so tired and lost. It's alsmost a hopeless feeling. Is this path for me? This is the first time I'm asking myself this question. Will I ever be good enough for myself to respect myself without other poeple's validation?
I did try my best. But no one sees it. I'm tired. So tired. Tired to make myself accept the way I am.
I've never been to the top. And I wonder why. Is it because I'm really not good enough to be on the top? Or is it because my thoughs stop myself from going up there?