A True Story of Mine
Sitting close to you, I was not surprised to feel the gentleness in you. Your touch had a tender warmth. Our hearts integrated and our hands intertwined so naturally that I felt like we had done this for a lifetime. All I wanted at the moment was to let you lie in my arms, sheltering you from the oppressive lethality of the world striking around us.
(ตัวเอียง) Fantastic, Ludwig! You realized it was to be. It’s but no dream you’re woken up not to face. It’s real!
Not until I met you I felt like a man who had found hope on the way to the gallows.
(ตัวเอียง) Life is mocking you.
For years since my birth, I had endured days and nights when I wanted to die, hours of pain, loneliness and untold sorrow that seemed only escapable by ending it all. And yet I had chosen life, telling myself I could make it alone. But one look in your eyes, for the first time, I had begun to understand what my heart had been telling me all along.
(ตัวเอียง) You make it alone. You’ll never find it. It’s your entire destiny, howsoever sorrowful or great.
My dream made this irony that much more severely to swallow. Fate had cruel timing. I felt as if layers of armor were never crumbling away from my heart. For instant, it was real; I sensed your presence looking over me as it often did. Years of quiet isolation never dissolved inside me. Your voice was everywhere, here and there, speaking the last words you had spoken to me at departure.
(ตัวเอียง) “Pi Pi, you’ll find another love,” your voice whispered.
(ตัวเอียง) “I’ll never want another one,” I told you.
Your smile was filled with wisdom. “You’ll have to learn.”
Now, lonely, I realized that I was not learning. A deep emotion suddenly gushed out in my soul I realized what my sadness was.
And only with you came an overpowering will to live.
I LOVE YOU.
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