Public school entrance exam I had "daikon" miso soup as I requested in the morning. It was the same on the morning of the entrance exam for the private school. Well, I didn't request it that time, but I passed the exam when I had this, so for good luck I requested it this time. Am I being too concerned? I went to the bathroom twice, and my mom drove me to the high school, where the exam was being held. Everyone looked smart to me, making me feel hesitant and impatient. The teachers escorted to our own classrooms where we were to take the test. As I was going up the stairs, I fell and sprained my feet. I ended up taking the test alone in the nurse's office. This is so miserable, super miserable. I pressed the watch I borrowed from my mom against my ears, and tried to relax.
Departure Yay, I passed! Both mine and my mom's faces were messy with tears. I'm going to put forth all my stength, and try my best to make lots of friends, and to be careful not to fall! Dinner was hamburger as my request. I'm so happy as if I'm the hero. I forgot all about the pain of forcing a body that I could not control, to study like mad. Oh this is such a wonderful feeling. But theres some loneliness. I have to start out with a handicap. My inability of controlling myself is becoming more obvious. Even my walking is unsteady. When I'm about to bump into someone, I can't quickly move away. I'm going to walk on the side of the hallway. I'll probably be the center of attention with my new friends. This isn't something I can hide, so I guess I should just show my true self from the beginning.-or so I think inside my head, but I'm worried. I don't know if I'll be able to keep up. I wonder what's going to happen with P.E.
That one word from my mom "Your highschool life isn't going to be easy. There will probably be more of hardships, being restricted from simple things and being seen as different from other people. But everyone lives with at least one or two hardship in their life. Don't think of yourself as unfortunate. You can pull through if you think that there are people who are more unfortunate than you." I thought to myself, hmm I see. My mom is probably in more pain than I am in. My mom works thinking about people who need help and are in pain. When I think about that, I can put up with my troubles. For my parents, myself, and for the society, I decided to continue doing my best with the hope of being able to live.
Hospitalization My first check up after starting high school. It still takes 2 hours by taking the freeway, so we left early in the morning. I think I'll write down some things I want to tell the doctor. 1. It's getting harder for me to walk. I fall without holding on to something. It's hard to lift up my feet. 2. I start choking when I eat or drink in a hurry. 3. I laugh to myseld alot (It's like a grin. I realized after my brother asking me what's so funny about that). 4. What's the illness that I have?
After having to wait a long time like usual, I had a check-up with one old doctor and three young doctors. I guess to check on my athletic ability, I had to straighten and bend my legs, hit my knees, and walk like the usual. My mom briefly talked about what I wrote down earlier to the doctor and also told her that I'm attending a normal high school with the help of my close friends. After the check-up the doctor said, "Let's get you hospitalized during your summer break, for the treatment and also so we can take tests. Please go through the hospitalization procedure before leaving today." Eeeek I'm gonna be hospitalized? Oh man. If I can get rid of this then I'll just have to pull through! I easily accepted it like that but, I really wonder what's going to happen to my body. Something is on the verge of breaking down. It's going to get worse unless we fix it as soon as possible. I'm scared. I was told that I have to wait until I get hospitalized to get the answer to the fourth question.
On the way home, I asked my mom. "Is Nagodai (Nagoya Daigaku Fuzoku Byouin) a good hospital? Will they cure me? This is my first summer break being in high school and I wanna do so many things, so I want the hospitalization to be short." "Aya, make sure to write down things that you notice about your body. It doesn't matter how small it is. It'll help with your treatment. That way your hospitalization might be short. If you think of this hospitalization as a short period in life, you can remember it as a good experience. Anyways, I'll only be able to check on you on Sundays so you have to do laundry on your own, without overdoing yourself. I'll buy you lots of underwear, but when you go home start writing down things you'll need and start getting ready."
On the way, we got out of Okazaki Interchange and we stopped by my aunt's (my mom's younger sister) house. I started crying while listening to my mom explain to her about my situation. "I want to heal her no matter what it takes. If Meidai Byouin can't do it, then I'll go to Tokyo or America or search everywhere to find someone to cure her." Then my aunt replied, "Aya-chan let's get better soon ok? Nowadays most illnesses are cureable and plus you're still so young. But, you have to keep your faith and tell yourself "I'm going to get better." If you just sit there and cry then even the strongest medicine won't do any good. I'll occaisonalliy come visit you. If you need anything just call me. I'll rush over there, so don't worry and just hang in there." She got out a tissue saying, "Come on, blow your nose and drink this juice. The juice is gonna taste salty if the tears get in," and made me laugh. I know it's still 2 months away but please time, stop! Aya's illness please stop as well!
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