After there is no u beside me

I cut it from some parts of my diary which i just start to write when someone who i love alot stays far away from me
---Miss u alot---

Hello!! honey honey!! This is my diary, I know that we talked together everyday, some days –more than 2 times…but in my opinion, only 20-30 minutes per day,
it’s not enough to tell u everything that passed through my life
(so that u can learn and know me more and we will grow up together.)

I start writing my diary online (computer) on 2nd of September, 2006


1st September 06
***I miss u a lot AGAIN AND AGAIN***
I still don’t know how to stop missing u, my life is changed a lot after u are not beside me. (no one pays me for my food, my taxi and my ice…just kiding) I have a lot of time until I don’t know what I should do. I’ll think like u are in the dorm. For example, today I’ll eat with honey honey (and then, oh honey isn’t here, I must eat alone) when I meet new things and some surprises passed me, I’ think if u are in the situation, u’ll think like that ..like that..
So that why I wanna phone u all the time and I know also u must feel bored with me and u’ll say that I don’t give u a time to miss u, but I try not to call u….I can’t do that.
I just want to know how ur life ‘s going, what do u do on that day, what experience do have.

---want to go out mark—cause it’s Friday night!!---

2nd September 2006
Woke up with panda eyes, and think about u again, still feel sad because of ur words last night, start thinking I won’t phone u tonight—because u don’t want me anymore.
Went to Vimanmek—the world largest teak wood mansion that we went together—feel sad, because it’s full with our memory, even guides are the same ones when we came to visit together
Learning, teaching and working—try to make myself busy, still think about u all the time more than everyday, think that I should phone u or not.
Cut my hair, I wanted it at my shoulder..it’s cool!! I think, and I think again—if u see it, u’ll say that it’s cool!! Can’t stop thinking about u as u say that women think about love a lot!! All day!!
Think that why I have to stop phoning u today, why don’t I do what I want to do..u should accept what I am….
Tomorrow I’ll try to phone u less na.. (feel lonely again tonight)

Thank Ann, Apple , Note , Elle and Jib
all of my friends that make me stronger again

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