The art of crying...
11/28/2011
Passing this test is a required stepping stone that I need and must. In order to overcome all the obstacles forcing forces are upon the upmost. Having difficulties with memory and learning ultimately makes the test become a great challenge.
30 minutes is the most time I have before my mind would burring up, any second passing that point noting will registered. I work with my ability and limitations.
Every 25 minutes I take a break; doing nothing that required brain power, resumed and the circle repeated itself throughout the months during which period I allowed myself for preparation.
Last night, I suddenly awake with rapid heart beats, heavy preparation even though the bedroom's temperature was in the low 50's. I have a bad dream.
When all the remedies of calming myself failed; ;psychologically and physically, I gave up trying to go back to sleep, got up and reviewing the test materials. Foggy head from lack of sleep and restless mentality the study can only goes on for a period of time. The test was scheduled in a couple of hours ahead.
Exhaustedly, my voice barely audible when I replied the testing center's staffs congratulation on the passing score.
The rain was purring when I was driving home
.in side the car tears rolling down my face. I allow myself hard and long crying; crying one of the thing was not available to me despite the current stage of my life.
I cry for long , laborious hours ; the hours supposedly spending with my children, I have put up with studying.
I cry to comfort myself in attempt to overcoming the loneliness.
I cry and calling for my mother;who, if still alive will certainly be the first to offer her generous words of cognatlation on a small success I have accomplished. I cry because now I can
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Today I've learn one more thing in life; The art of crying
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